The Captured Moments in A Nobody’s Life

I would like to live my day dream, but the story of my day dream is a little too harsh for me to live it, or rather it is a total utter fantasy to live it. Maybe i should turn it into a story, but there are too many fucking story books around and not forgetting my english is pretty poor especially my writing. I wouldnt mind turning it into a manga or graphic novel, but i have no artistic skill on hand. Even if i tried my best i would turn out to be a poor story teller. So i guess it is best for me to just leave that dream fly into thin air ……

I have just went for another round of detox and would be going for my third round this coming sunday. Of course the detox was meant to change my eating habit of from total meat to vegetarian. It did change my eating habit ….. but for more meat, or rather some healthy meat if i would have a say in it. I was craving sooo much sushi. But of course i had to refrain because if i dont, i would be out of money pretty soon. Of course my bank account doesnt say that way and that is because the money that is in my bank account isnt mine, but it belongs to the firm i work for. This is because i had taken out quite a big sum of advance.  of course, this makes things harder for me as i have a harder time of tracking down, which is my money and which is not. This is certainly not easy at all~!!!!

I hate handling sooo much money, and despite the typical stereotype that accountants face, not all accountants are good with numbers. I am just okay with numbers and words as well. I am very much dumbfounded with both words and numbers at times. Like how my car constantly drinks petrol like there is no tomorrow and still doesnt gives me the power that i would normally get for the same amount of petrol like ages ago. It is sad to say that my car is getting old and its just drinking petrol like there is no tomorrow. To make it worse, i am paying petrol not only for my own usage but also for another user. Those who knows me well would know who i am talking about. But i cannot not fill my tank up. He used to not have enough money to buy meals at times. And that was bad. Of course i had to help.

Well, leaving that at that, moving on to office, well office has been pretty quiet and of course there is a girl in my department who is pissing me off. Not just me but also the other staff members in the department. Her work is definately way below par but we have to carry her weigh of work. Not only does she not perform, she totally wrecks everyones mood to work. With below par quality work and with a dont care attitude and with no effort to put in any initiative at all, everyone is getting pretty pissed with her. But of course the higher ups are trying to give her a second chance and she still putting up the same act again. She is simply bringing the entire department down. There are just too many complaints about her. She is truly a work of art in fouling up work and not knowing how to do work. There are a thousand and one things to say about her, but i shall not dirty this post much longer with talks about her. Lets just hope that she wouldnt stay much longer as she is a total hassle to the rest of us in the department. Truly a hassle. To cut it short, if she does your work, you might just end up re-doing the work again, which means it is double work for the rest of us. Not forgetting she will constantly ask us for help to do her work, and we end up doing her work while she sits there and stares blankly not knowing whats going on or the initiative to understand whats going on.

Alright, enough about her, and back to me. I should not be saying too much about her, because i myself isnt a superb worker as well. Hahahaha i have to admit i am pretty slow in doing work which is not good at all. Still much to improve. Of course at least i take the initiative to improve, though it is a lil tiresome to pursue this, but i have to force myself to understand as much as i can regarding my current work. Of course there are more opportunity to expand myself. I need to break free from this norm shit i am facing day in day out. Its just killing me …….

Anywayzzzzz, i have to keep an eye out on opportunities that may pop up in front of me, but most of the time i would be too blind to realise it. Sadly, this is always the case for me.

Alrighty then, time for me to leave out all the rest and let anyone here just take a bash out of me if they want to. Its been awhile since i heard any voices here. So, let it shine~!! Ciaozuuu~!

Yeah overdosed on tooooo many spicy chickens, from both Mc D and also the pasar malam Uncle Bob chicken.  This sure left a great deal of discomfort in my stomach which then lead me to an awful time in the loo.  But it did taste good, but at a hefty price.  I cant take it anymore, gotta take a long long rest from all those foods.  It can certainly kill me for sure.

Anywayz, I now have a swollen eyelid due to unknown reasons.  But i think it has been there since last week but had just gotten worse over this weekend.  Now i need to head to the doctors clinic to have this swollen eyelid checked or else i might be in for a lousy week then.

As for office, well i have been pretty busy doing some a great deal of work, but my chargeability is still lower than others and of course lower than the expected rate by the firm.  But it would not be as low as one of the new girl.  As she was only having only about slightly above 7% of effective chargeability. This term would only be known to those who work in the big firms.  No other line of work would understand this at all.  At first i was planning to head to work today, but with this eyelid, i might have to scrap that idea.  I had also planned to head to Low Yat to get the necessary replacement items of wires and what not.

As for valentine, well it was spend the cheapest way possible, but of course i have to make up for it later on that is for sure.  But it is all good as we both enjoyed ourself despite the several minor incidents that i shall always bring up from now on.

On another note, Mc D standard sure has dropped.  Their fries are soft and soggy, their drinks are flat and tastes weird.  It kinda makes me wonder, should i head there to eat more?  But of course i cant resist their Chocotop Cone Sunday.  I love it very much~!  But every different place makes it differently which kinda pisses me off as sometimes the Chocotop is damn good, but other times its just not enough chocolate~!

Well i better get moving to go to the doctors.  I hate waiting, but i better go early so that i can be the first patient of the day.  Soooooo till next time ciaozuu~!

Ahhh, 2008, I remember that at the beginning of the 2008 was a nice relaxing time especially in Melbourne. I know it is a lil late to post a remembrance of 2008 but lets take a good look at my 2008.

Well I know that I was still in Melbourne in January, and that during that month a trip to Gold Coast which was pretty nice especially at the water theme park where people stared at my back. Hahaha. Gotta love the weather in Australia, especially Melbourne with the nice cooling weather. But gotta hate the summer when it gets all the way up to 40 degrees celcius. Well it is a love hate relationship of course.

But I certainly got tanned at my neck after chopping off my long locks at the end of 2007. And its still there on the back of my neck. Ahhh, after that returned back to the land where my blood is spilled. Hahaha, I dunno whether people would really get that part there, but yeah, I got back.

Back for Chinese New Year of course. But this time around, I didn’t feel the CNY vibe or had any CNY feeling. Just the dull feeling of another day passing by. Of course there were some issues to be settled then and it was dealt with. But more problems arose from there onwards.

Then after the break of CNY, the application for getting a job. That was certainly an awful period, but it was also awfully short period as well. After much interviews and assessments, I finally got a job.

After that its all pretty mundane life you know. Eat work sleep and the cycle continues like endlessly. But of course there were a few issues that arose from the employment, but it is very normal. Very normal indeed.

Other than that, I lived a pretty mundane lifestyle. But I found some nice food which I continuously crave every week without fail. On top of that my car was falling apart leading me to spend heaps and heaps of money on to get it fixed and repaired. Of course I had a minor accident which damaged the driver’s side of the car which until now I still haven’t gotten it fixed yet which is a total bummer.

Other than that I am constantly low on money which is no good at all as I cant really enjoy good food and stuff. Saddening. Well life goes on. Ohhh I also forgot to mention that I told my mother about my tattoo and of course with undue influence from my aunts, my mother prohibits me from getting anymore new tattoos. But its not like I have the money to do so as well.

Other than that I dunno what other significant thing happened in my life. What a dull guy I am. Alrighty then, I guess that’s about it. That’s my 2008. If you think I left out something, please do give me a buzz about it. Then I can change it. Till then ciaozuuu.

Happy Chinese New Year everyone ~!!!! This time around CNY is pretty tiring. This time also i am the banker for the BlackJack games with my cousins. Of course the maximum bets i allowed was RM1 and of course minimum is also RM1, allowing myself to be called the RM1 banker. My luck was pretty good i guess seeing that i was winning. Of course with the low bets, there are only low returns for the players, but still they lost alot despite betting only RM1. On the 3rd day of CNY, my aunt played as well, raising the betting limit to RM5. Of course i had to allow it and of course i won more than i lost. My cousins follow suit. Of course later on my aunt stopped playing. Then as we were playing towards the end of the game, they ask to raise the stakes to RM10 for final round. Of course i allowed it as it was the final round, but unfortunately for them, i had to draw a card which led me to getting a total of 21. Which landed me with a clean sweep of doubles from my cousins.

Of course i was generous to bring them out for supper 2 nights in a row, once to Old Town, and the following night to Mc D. Its kinda cheap, but at least i still offerred supper to them. It was ok la this time around. Everyone is pretty much grown up of course. Of course there was another agenda this year around and there was a convert as well. Which is not that shocking, but didnt expected it to be so.

Now back to work, work work work~! Work was pretty tight on the week before CNY. Alot of work, but luckily could still head back home on time. Despite the fact that there were alot of work and i had just returned to work after the grueling trip to S’pore, i was pretty intense. Of course there were a few other things going on, like the headhunter thingy, and the departure of my manager from the firm, and the return of a senior manager from his assignment in another country.

So now i have to work under the senior manager who is quite scary to work under. Of course this is how things will be in my department. Constantly working in fear of the higher ups. This is definately not a joke. I cant risk leaving now cause i have bills to pay and responsibility to carry out. Trust me, i would like to change my job, but to do that, i need a new direction or path to do so. So if you could please help point me in that direction, i would be happy out of my mind. But i doubt that it would ever happen. So just let it be i suppose and continue working where i am working now.

Other than that, life is pretty sucky you know. But hey, like my mother say, “Life goes on”, and that is a fact. Other than that my life is still pretty mundane.

Ohhh, i am trying to organise the trip to Langkawi, and it has already hit a few hiccups. So i certainly have to do alot more work to make sure things run smoothly. I also need to get money before i can do the bookings because i certainly dont have the money to do bookings for soooo many people. Hahaha.

Alright moving on, work place is sure getting scarier~! Thats all.

Till next time ciaozuu~!