The Captured Moments in A Nobody’s Life

Well of course recently my birthday passed by of course. But this time around it was definitely merrier than the previous year. But as per normal there are things that are bound to make things really unfavorable and somewhat of a awful feeling. This time around, certain people in the workforce has been bringing things down for me. Of course this is causing me to fall into a deep low down feel. There isn’t much i can do about it really, because they are far higher up than me, i just have to follow what they ask.

As for my birthday, it was pretty okay i guess. Money will always be an issue for me and to get it meaning i have to work like a fucking donkey for fucking longer hours than i should and only able to report less than i had work for to be able to work in the efficient hours as per required by the place i work for. Unfortunately this will become more and more routine as time passes by as there will be greater time needs for me for the coming months due to the unbelievable amount of work with such short deadlines. There are no break soon enough. I wonder would i be able to survive this ordeal? Well i hope things work out okay for me.

Currently time is becoming more of an issue. I am becoming more restless at work with my inability to complete the work given to me. I dont really know how to really do the work. Maybe i should ask, but i really dunno what to ask. Its just getting a lil too tough for me.

Work is really seeping into my life and like ex-colleague told me, dont bring your work into your life. I find it hard to do so as work is part of life, and work is being more and more of a drag nowadays. Cant help but hate it.

Well at least i hope there will some new people joining my department soon to help out with the workload that is really piling up fast~! This is due to the recruitment drive held at a career fair which i was called to attend at the very last minute. Of course it is better to make an appearance as my name has already been put in by big bosses. SOOOO better show than no show to make a good impression. Of course it was nice to be able to talk to fresh grads and students into joining the company i work for, and better still the department i am working in. Of course i tried my best to talk to these people but of course it isnt the case all of the time, since i had to ask some of my colleagues from other departments to assist me in talking to some of the people who visited the booth. But it was pretty fulfilling, i would say.

Last but not least, i think if you already had read my loved one’s then you would know that we went for some really nice dining for free courtesy of my aunt. But this time around, it was as good as the previous week. Would love to get another chance of dining at the place my loved one and myself went to last week. Nevertheless, i need to collect more money for more things to come.

Haihz haihz, i am feeling pretty down with things that are happening around me, or rather i am alraedy in this downward spiral feeling that making things feel really bad. I really feel like skipping work for a day, but that would mean i would be piling a great deal of shit when i get back to work on the following day wouldnt it. But maybe it is the songs that are currently playing. Listening to My Chemical Romance certainly not a way to bring my spirits back up. But hey i like their songs very much. Well for pictures  you can always resort to heading over to my loved one’s blog. She has i think a pic of me with 1 of my cakes. Seeing that i had 3 different cakes over the weekend. Of course i did not even touch the last cake as i cant take that much cake as well.

I NEED A FUCKING BREAK FROM THIS LIFE~! I NEED A FUCKING HOLIDAY~! GET ME THE HELL AWAY FROM KL AND MY COMP~! I NEED TO FUCKING GET AWAY~!

My sincerest apologies for the excessive profanities, i just had to let it all out. I guess that would be about it. Ciaozuuu …..

p.s. Most of my colleagues are pretty surprised with my age, and of course even my bosses were quite surprised with my age as well. Even another colleague of mine told me i seem to be wiser than my age. Am i too old ? ? ?

Maybe its the wrong title to put, but it is how i feel at the moment. My car, well my car’s air con broke down, leaving me with no air con for the next few days. This is simply horrible. Well, looks like outflow of money is imminent yet again, with the registration for CPA coming up soon and to pay off repair for the air con. Wahahaha, digging into my savings yet again. Wooo hoooo im fucked. Well i am fucked no matter what la.

Having lady bosses and lady clients are sometimes a real big pain~! Its like whenever i try to go near them they are sooo bloody pms-sy. Its really sucks the fun out of working. Making me not wanting to work….. Haihz, too bad i still need to work to get the money, or else i am pretty screwed. Huhuhu.

At least i have someone to rant to while i am in the office. It takes half of the stress away. Making work a lil bit more bearable. Well that is pretty much how boring my life is now. Work, eat, relax at home, sleep. And the cycle repeats itself for every day of my weekedays.

Well then till the next post, ciaozuu…

Work has really taken a big toll on my body as i had to stay for just one night and its lats minute work that my Senior Manager had asked me to prepare and complete for her review after being reviewed by my senior. Of course my senior and myself work ridiculously late that night into 12.45AM just trying to complete the work. I ended up sleeping almost 2, and my senior 3 plus. And luckily it was a Thursday, and therefore my Friday was really really tiring. Or rather i was like a bloody zombie.

Again there are more work coming in the coming weeks to come with more unexpected news from clients regarding the status which really sucks. But thats how life is, it is full of surprises isnt it. Well the weekends wasnt filled with much relaxation, but rather more of getting around getting stuff and enjoying good food, and getting massages, and of course meeting up with an old friend.

After giving much thought, i forgot to show her my tattoo. Kesian, she didnt get to see my completed wings. Since she only get to view half of my completed wings before she left to study overseas. But now since she is back, I should showed it to her. Maybe it just skipped my mind. On top of that, we didnt take a photo. So sad. Does that mean we have to meet up again before you leave?  Better get back to me on that okay.

As for life, i think life sucks pretty bad now, but as always, this phrase will hit me, “LIFE GOES ON”. So just have to make the best out of it dont we. All we can do is just rant and whine about the crazy work and the measly pay and unclaimable OT.

Owh, i am trying hard to load pictures into my Photobucket account to build a Pictorial page soon. I hope this project will come into fruitation within the month. Hehehe.

Well till next time, ciaozuuuu.

Well yeah, by mid of the working week, my week was taking a downturn. Well, i guess the upside of life doesnt stay up for long does it. So my 2nd half of my week is now spiralling down like fuck. But since the weekend is here. I am trying to make the best out of it, before i head towards a greater downward spiral in the coming week. Weeee, im going swim in deep shit next week. So lets get me as high up before i dive down into the coming pile of shit~!

Ahhh i wonder if i would be able to get my tattoo, get things i want for my desktop, get my mustang, get my life in order. Well, no use pondering without any efforts will there. Leaving that aside. Life is crappy and will get a lil bit crappier with the new jobs coming along my way in my line of work. Well it is to be expected of me. I will be running OT without actually being able to charge OT. And so i am welcome to the harsh reality of Malaysian working life. But i have consider myself lucky for the pay i am receiving, i am still able to survive comfortably.

Well, i just hope i get to go out more in the next few weeks to have a good time chatting with friends. Certainly would be great to do so, as it would be certainly be a mean of escape from the reality of work for me. But we’ll just have to see how la. I have no idea what else to really talk about. Hehehe. Let me try posting up something onto photobucket for my viewers to see. Well i shall do that. Hopefully laziness doesnt get to me 1st. Hehehe. Till then, ciaozuu…

When i just thought my pay was just enough to cover me and most of my burdens, the petrol price hike came about. Which of course, had cause a large riot and panic among the rakyat. This is ridiculous. Though there are some relieves here and there it but it doesnt adds up to what we are losing on the price hike on the petrol. Certainly everything else will have a price hike sooner or later.

Life is getting too expensive for me to carry all the burdens i am suppose to carry. Fortuantely, some of these burdens were taken off my chest, allowing me a breath a little. But life of course is never that simple la. Life where got let you off the hook soo easily right. Yeah, but there isnt a catch yet. Or maybe there is, just that i didnt realize it. Hahahaha. But life is certainly a lil more expensive, but we have to cope to continue on with life. Like my momma once said to me, life goes on….. Which is entirely true.

Well since petrol is up, i am looking forward to a whole lot of things going up in prices as well. Time will tell thats for sure.

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Continuing this on another day, i just had a bad time at work so it just bringing me down. But i think all i need is a whole lot of sleep. Meaning i would be hitting the sack soon after dinner thats for sure.

Other than that i dont really know what to blog about anymore. And i am beginning to not like my keyboard. It is soo hard to type on it. Dam. Till laterz… CIaozzuu

Another week has passed by. Of course there were a number of things that i was bogged down with. Like my newly downloaded game. Universe at war. Unfortunately i put on hold for awhile to get my health back up. Need to pump some iron i suppose. But i am not too keen on it. But of course this is for the better of my health. The week pass by quite uneventful in my life. But working was alot of work. Considering that i was told to do a few new things that was a little too surprising for me. Luckily my senior guided me. Without her help i would be a lost sheep …..

Owh owh, i was called up by another firm asking whether i was interested in leaving where i am currently working, and of course i gave them a firm no. Cant back away from the people i met so far. I owe them a whole lot ~!!!! Of course this place has more chances of me moving up i guess. But of course an equivalent amount of work is in order to rise up i guess. Day after day, more and more things for me to learn. Of course i am trying my best to learn it. And of course i am quite fast in doing the work i am used to. Of course with a few reminders and guidance from my senior. I really want to help my senior out, but she has too MUCH work to handle even to a point she cant really pass them because it is still out of my league. Of course i am willing to help. I have been used as the emergency runner for my department. But i guess it is gonna be post stuck to me since i am the only guy staff around. The other guys are managers and above. Wait, let me rephrase that, a manager and a director. Of course i would be the kuli in the office right. Hehehe.

Well life has certainly taken a turn for me as i certainly got alot more shit to handle ehhh. But better not fret too much. But recently i have been pretty tempermental… My temper is a lil out of hand at the moment. anger is showings its ugly head at the moment. But i guess, we all have that time in our life from time to time.

I really wanna get new tattoos, but unfortunately money restrictions as well as mother restrictions apply and that means a big NO NO~! So tattoo is put on hold. But my plan for “the heart” is really something i have given much thought about. But it will definitely be visible once it is done. It is something i wanna do badly, but of course the restrictions still apply. So it is still a NO~!

Talking about money, money is a something i like to have, but unfortunately money is something i am running out of. But of course it is the new month. I am still using a lil bit of my savings from my sijil that i sold earlier on. Hehehe.

Ohhh not forgetting i love my new CPU set up. Faster, better, and sounds sooo much better~! Hehehehe, I am officially 1.3TB worth of hard disk space. But of course there are alot of re-organising that needs to be done over the next week or so to fully utilise my new found 1.3TB. Hehehehe. On top of that, my graphic is simply beautiful, and my Command & Conquer: Kane’s Wrath is soo smooth, and doesnt hang any more~! Which is sweet.

I am making this a long long post, seeing that i didnt post over the weekends. Hehehe. Of course during the weekends i was busy playing Universe at War. And on Sunday i started to fall a lil ill which was not good at all. Soooooo FUCKING uncomfortable~! And of course there was an arm pain which went away after i started doing work. The wonders of work really help doesnt it. It not only helps me get money, but also get me better. HOHOHOHOHO.

Seems like i am running a lil short of words to say anything else. Ohhhh i will try to post some pics on FB as well as here as soon as i can get my ass to it. Hheehehehehe. Well soo long suckassssss. Hahahah.

Ohhh a big shout out, to those who havent started working, FUCKING ENJOY YOUR FUCKING LIFE BEFORE YOU FUCKING WORK, COS ONCE YOU WORK, THERE IS NO TURNING BACK ~! or so i say. Hehehehehe.

Till next time ciaoz~!

p.s. Joey, i will make sure i see you get tattooed, no matter what others has to say~! YOU ARE GETTING ONE AND IT WILL BE A GIFT FROM ME TO YOU~!