The Captured Moments in A Nobody’s Life

Looks like i pushed myself a little too much on friday night by sleeping so late and ended up sleeping as early as 7pm on sat and waking up at 1.45 on sunday morning and now i am here blogging. Well like those who had commented on my previous, forgive me for making that post a little too long for comfort. But i only blog once a week. So sometimes there are a little bit more info in that post that usual.

Well what have i been up to since i woke up from my deep slumber ? Well i had a shower while washing my toilet Hahahaha. Anywayz after my shower i am back here to blog a little more. Alright, i would like to address Joey’s question here then.

Well my mother didnt really commented much on my tatt but just told me that she would have stopped me if she knew that i was doing it. But seeing that it was already done she says “Life goes on” and there is nothing she can do about it. Hehehe. But say its pretty big. And she was wondering how did she not notice such a big tatt on my back. Hahahaha. And i thought she knew since she almost caught me without my top on one or a few occasions. But now there is no need to hide. Ahhh the relief. Maybe because of the freedom in Melb, i am not used to being cut of my freedom in showing my tatts. So i had to come clean about it.

I even told it to my colleagues whom i barely knew within a month of my employment. But it was nice to see they were cool about it, albeit a lil shocked but cool about it. So yeah things seems to be okay. And the new girl really thought it was just a fake, saying something that big cant be real. She say “it is fake right, it will come off right”. Was certainly hilarious to see that. But its all ok now. The hype about my tatt has died down a little.

But i did do some designing of my ‘chest piece’ during one of the training briefing. Its just me simply scribbling around. But it is more or less something i would do. For now i just need approval to do it, and of course i need to find some pictures of it. Maybe some medical students can help with the design this time around. Hehehe.

I am also watching Malaysian Dreamgirls, seeing that i stopped watching since awhile back.  Hahaha, actually i am not watching it much just listening to it while i continue typing here. Hahahaha. Getting a tad too boring to watch it on its own i guess.

This week of work i though would be pretty heavy but i was a little wrong as by mid friday afternoon and with about two hours left to spare before i can officially get off work, i had done most of my work. I was asking my other colleagues if there is any work that i could do. Of course by then i was a little lethargic and not doing my work properly. Yeah i am really slow doing my work by then. Ahhhhh.

There has been a great deal of pressure to perform. But i dont think the new girl has that idea. Well that idea was implanted in me by the senior manager who did grilled me on friday morning in regards to some of my work that i had done during the week. She was also asking about some of the prospective clients by which i had a hand in doing research as well as the proposal. Of course those kind of work has a great deal of importance before the big boss can approve whether to take the job or not. Alot of procedures to follow which is a pain but it is still part and puzzle of my line of work.

Not forgetting my pay. Damn finally i got my pay, and i can spend a little more. I also need to get a new pair of shoes, seeing that my shoe that i had all this while is coming apart. Better get that new pair of shoes soon i guess. From my rough estimation, i might go pokai again this month at the things that i should spend my money on this month. So i shall need to get my financials correct before spending my money.

Well thats about it. Its 4:09 now and i should be getting a nap for another long day ahead of me i guess. Thanks for the comments, ciaozzu …

There is a growing expectation of me from the senior manager. This sure has placed a huge burden on my shoulder. With all the work coming in, i am running myself a lil thin i suppose. Thank the stars that i am not in audit/assurance. It would surely killed by the end of a month. My department is a little laid back but of course we have our datelines to meet. There are also abundance of information that was bombarded onto myself and my absorbing capability isnt as what it used to be maybe like 5 years ago. Well at least now i have a greater understanding of things so things are easier to comprehend at times when explanations were given by my forever friendly seniors. But i best not take their friendlinest for granted. Because in the months to come, they too will expect more out of me, and of course i would certainly need to ask more from them in the future to prevent any drastic mistake from taking place.

There are certainly alot of overdue pictures that i should have posted up a long time ago, but the time i used to relax is taking far too much of my time on the weekends and the fact that on weekdays, i am too tired to continue on any serious blogging work. I think i have also failed to update my FB for a long long time. Of course my life pales many times in comparison to some around me. Its like im 6 feet under and they are way above the sky, like far far … like on the moon or so. But of course i cant really say much there because i myself chose this life for myself and not live the high road like some around me. Of course there are many of them who are pretty much down to earth and i am very glad to have these friends though. I wouldnt explain much because i know it would certainly cause alot of problem if i do mention names here.

Hehehe, i certainly need to take a neutral stance at times. But of course there are many things i wish to do but of course looking into my financial situation, i certainly cant make it happen anytime soon. With the upcoming plans that are ahead, i certainly would not be able to save much during the coming month with my pay day coming soon. There are alot of people of whom i owe a whole lot to them and as a way of gratitude, i certainly need to treat them to a certainly good hearty meal i suppose.

Of course i had started to begin to relax a lil more with the help of my cats. Hehehe. Life can be hectic at times and of course patience has been tested many times before. My patience used to have its limits. But now with work in my life, i guess i have soften up a little and harden a little. I am not too sure about this myself. But of course there are a few thrills that i derive from my daily activities which keeps me sane enough to keep my head high knowing i am still alive and kicking and that i should not take things for granted.

I think i jump topic alot dont i, well i tend to blog to what i have on the top of my head. I dont really do editing to my posts unless it is per requested by credible comment-ers. So back to the picture thing, well of course there are suppose to be pics of my graduation. But after hearing to some un-related news, i think i might have to re-think the pictures that i would post. Hehehehe. I am a considerable person, just ask and i will try to see what i can do for you. But please do not be unreasonable with your request, that is all i ask. Hehehehe. I think i shall also take some time in updating my FB.

Ohhh, btw, i think i forgot to mention that i told my mother about my wings and the fishes. Those who knows about them has certainly heard of the story from me personally. I think it was just an act that was in my subconscious mind had in stored for me. I just felt that i needed to tell her so that i can get back some freedom i lost in the house. Well it certainly paid off. Owh, forgot to mention as well that my aunts and my cousin seems to have heard of it as well. Not all of my aunts though, but just one or two them. My cousins who were not suppose to know even knew about it. Damn, i shouldnt have allowed myself to put it on FB. But of course i have taken it down.

Life is certainly unpredictable at times. Maybe it is good to lay low and also to live a quiet simple life especially for me. Maybe it is because of my upbringing i suppose. Well enough of these emo shit crap. Time to get back on track and move on in life. Hehehehe.

Owh, i certainly gotta mention this here. I told my colleagues about my tattoo within a month knowing them. Maybe to gain their trust by putting trust of such personal information. Of course these information came about during our casual talks at lunch together. Of course they seem cool about it, but they said that they were shocked to hear about my wings and also my fishes. Of course my relationship with them were better after a few weeks with them. They are a bunch of cool people of whom i respect. Not forgetting the new hire who just came in the last week. Of course she didnt do much work as she was undergoing training which we went for together for two days and another two days of training and introduction by the admin people in the main department i am in. As a way to have welcome her in, we had a lunch with her, which was also a treat from two of my colleagues as they were promoted recently. Good chicken rice i would say, but lacking the proper amount of rice and chicken. We did came about to talking about my wings and in regards to tatts. The new hire was certainly blur as to what we were talking so i showed her a picture of my wings. She was a lil shocked as well asking, “its not permanent right”. Well of course my other colleagues assured her that it is real and permanent. Nice shocking news for the new hire in her first week there right. It would have been it i was her. Hehehehe.

Well life has been pretty easy on me i guess. Or rather i am used to the hardships that has been thrown at me. Like what i always hear, “What doesn’t kill ya, makes ya stronger~!”. Well it could hold true for awhile i guess.

Wooohoooo, i blog quite abit right. Well to get in line with the title of this post, i would say growing expectations is expected out of me, not only at work, but i suppose from my family as well. Weeeeee.

But i am still too laid back i guess. I am still stalking people online especially those with blogs. Especially a certain few people who really makes it worthwhile to spend time reading. This of course takes the time i should use to read the newspaper. Bad trade off i would say. Hehehehe. But i like the writing on those blogs and sometimes the pictures it bear.   =P

Well i should better get going, i guess. I will try to make the necessary posting in regards to my graduations and maybe to other things.

Ahhh i still cant get something off my mind. Those who knows M TBY, well i would like to officially announce, that he is an attention whore with horrendous understanding of english as well as having a psychotic mind. Thank you for your support here.

Have a good week, and remember, “Dont let the world fuck you, go out and fuck the world~! ….. Only if you are capable~!”. Hehehehe. Take carez…..

Well, i just simply put the title this time around, but the word has alot to do with an event that i went for. Well, my loved one and myself went for the Rock, Shop, Recover event at Sunway Pyramid with me thinking, maybe i can get some freebie. Unfortunately that is not the case and on top of that the event wasnt all that successful, if i would say. But of course the crew were having some games during some of the events to search for the Rock, Shop, Recover winner. I joined one of them game by which was called ‘The Longest Yard’. This game required the players to build the longest line using whatever items the player has on them. I was pretty much on the losing side seeing that i nowadays dont wear as much accessories as i may have used to in the past. On top of that, i now wear a more simple attire leading to my lost. Of course during the game, i fell very short of the line as i didnt have much on me to build the line. Another contestant was way ahead of me by using her belt, her 2 shoe laces, and hell, she also lied down on the floor. Well i also tried my best to win, to the point of taking off my shirt in public, which aroused the publics chants and of course, i did asked my beloved one whether i should do it, seeing that the emcee of the game was saying that the guys can also use their shirt. She gave the green light to me after i pointed at my back, and so i tore myshirt in two and lay it on the floor (of course i didnt tear it la then how to walk around Pyramid le…. siao). And i heard someone saying or shouting, lie down. Which i also did. I couldnt believe i followed the words of people around me without looking who was it from. I FUCKING LIED DOWN ON THE ROAD LIKE ROAD KILL ~!!!

Of course it was fun, i had to be the shortest among all the other contestants as they had shoes and i had slippers. hahahaha. Even my height was of no use this time. Well it was just a game. But it was a game that exposed my back, my wings, my principles, and of course the fishes, the will.

As of the last week, i was still struggling doing the same work until i completed it on Thurs, thinking i’ve done it~! But i was soon bombarded with more daunting work, and to top that off, more information overload. Though it was more challenging work, i was struggling all the way through and of course my mind was totally worn out even to a point i did not realize i was making more and more mistakes by the minute. So i knew by then i should get back and rest. But like i said before, i wouldnt have lasted if i were to join auditing. So i guess tax is the way to go for me.

Other than that, i think i very pokai now. But still spending so much on food on weekends. And to top that off, buying dinner and groceries for my father, might have slightly make the hole in my wallet a lil bigger, but i dont really have a choice, as he is my father, and i should help. . . . . . .

As of nowadays, i have been eating pretty cheap food nearby my office. This is of course the only way to survive through for the rest of the month till my next pay day.

Oh not forgetting that i have been doing alot of blog reading as well. Well to keep up with my net stalking activities of course. Doing some commenting as well. Hahaha. Of course there were some nonsensical moments. Alright la, im now pretty tired still. Maybe because of the lack of sleep.

Not forgetting i suffering a lil due to some pain my mouth. I fear it could be my wisdom tooth. If it is so, then i am lucky that it happens here in KL, than in Melb. But i am also unlucky, because it happened now, instead of earlier. I might even have to take MC for this. DAMN~!

Ok, sleep sleep time. Sleep well, if you are sleeping later, and have a good day, if you still have the day ahead of you. Just take carez and have a nice …………… fuck~!

its pretty late for me now, and i am going to keep this short, seeing that my blog here has hit rock bottom visitors. but hey, its not for them its for me right……. YEAH RIGHT ~!

anywayz, there are some things on my mind. more or less about the future and about the present. well i just hope things will turn out just ok la.

life has also hit rock bottom for me as im feeling like at the bottom for today, but luckily at times my work gets my mind off this for awhile. but since i am back, it did hit me hard especially when i was driving back home. haihz ….

ok la .. need sleep, as sleep needs me …. ciaoz ….

Life is a real bitch, and this must be repeated as many times as i could on this blog of mine. Unfortunately, i also tend to make some of the wrongest (i know there is no such word, but i am inventing it now) decisions in my fucking life. Of course this things tend to be things that are not morally correct, in a certain perspective i guess. But thats life for me. I have no fucking luck in some areas at all~! This is a known fact.

Well enough of this ranting, so i shall now lead the the things i have been doing as of late. I have been working, eating, working, onlining, sleeping. The  process repeats itself for most of my days, except for a few days where i had free lunch and dinner, went for a memorial while getting lost on the way there, and screwing up some decisions. Other than that, i have no time for myself. I need the time to sleep like now.

Im feeling way tooooo tired, and its only 10.30 at night. I guess i am still not used to the working mentality just yet. Its painfully tougher than expected. Anywayz, i better get some shut eye.

I know this is a short short post, but unfortunately my brain isnt working properly to give a proper run down of things. See ya later ~ !