The Captured Moments in A Nobody’s Life

Mentally, i am overloaded with information not only regarding my work, but also my firm, my department, my job scope, the true nature of my work, the benefits of my position, the do’s and don’ts, the way to clock in my working time, and a whole lot more. Of course there is soo much that my inactive brain could take. So not all i would be able to remember by today. Of course the environment has been pretty friendly except for the idea that i am back in Malaysia where i am yet again restricted on Fridays. Its like the school days …. dam ~!

Anywayz, only another new hire in the same main department as me. I am in another sub-department and she is in another sub-department. Working is tiring, and has certainly drain the life out of me. Of course i still have not adapted to the new working life as well as the strain of the job as yet. This will certainly take some time. And of course looking at my financial restraint, i have been cutting down on eating good food, except for some occasional splurging on food. Nonetheless, working gives me less time to eat, meaning i grow hungry pretty easily at work as i am busy working my brain off. Of course that has been settled with the purchase of 2kg worth of lemon biscuits to accompany me at work. Hahaha, but of course i had put it into my drawer locked ready for the next week working period.

At the period, i get tired fast, but of course it is slowly bringing out the workaholic in me i guess. but i do work quite slow. Kesian my seniors who has been working late all this while. Not many seniors though, seeing that my sub-department is pretty small. I dun think it is appropriate for me to call sub-department, so shall call it my department, and for the whole group, the division. Anywayz, my department only has 10 people, including myself you see. So anything that goes around in my department will be known by all the superiors of the department. So if i mess up, i will be messing up big time, but if i do good, i will be doing good big time also. Based on the words of a superior of course.

Ahhh there are always alot of problems but there isnt much that i can do about it is there. Hahahaha. Well i m off, to get some things done, just too many problems, and not much time to handle them all ~! neither do i have the cash to handle them all as well.

Well, there isnt much to say except for that i am trying to run away yet again from working by playing almost all the games i have in hand, and on top of that i watched some movies. Not forgetting more games and also some CSI Miami with my mom.

I am certainly dreading it, but i guess there is no running now. The time to work has arrived, and time to get money has dawned. I NEED MONEY ~!

Alright time to sleep, or else i will be a zombie on the 1st day of work ~!

New change is both in myself as well for the country i love. With the elections over and with a surprise at the end of the election, things will change or so people and myself assume. With this two in mind, new hopes are placed upon the changes met. As such , my parents hopes for me to proceed far with my career as for the country, people hope to see a lot of changes in the government with a new approach of course.

This nonetheless will bring fourth new challenges, and therefore shall be faced. As for me, i think i am slowly getting the hang of the idea that i am starting work as an employee of a professional firm. Of course i know that i have my work cut out for me in the area of taxation especially in the field i am assigned to as i have no idea what the hell i am suppose to do. But from my wildest guesses, i am guessing that the first week should be more or getting used to the new environment as well as catching up with the rules and regulations of the firm i shall be working for. I also need to start sleeping early to wake up early fresh. Of course this would be like the time during my schooling days. when i had to wake up as early as 5.30 in the morning to get ready and head off to school to reach school by 6.30 in the morning or so. With that said, i think this is more of going back to school, but instead of studying, i will now work.

With that put in place, i hope that things would work out nicely and accordingly so that there will be no upheaval and chaos running about. With new changes in motion, new hopes are placed, and with that, new challenges shall be faced ~!

I am in a great deal of denial at the moment. I am very reluctant about facing the working life as i dont really want to work. As i type this, i am also chatting with one or two people online, as well as scanning some materials for my father. I am not too sure whether i mentioned about the work that i was doing for my father, maybe i did, i am just lazy to check it. Ahhh the laziness kicks in. There might be a lost of flow in this post due to the ongoing work of scanning the materials that was given to me.

Alright, back to topic, i am in denial about working as i dont want to work, and just wish to escape from it. Unfortunately i cant do so. Well, where shall i start. It all began when i thought things were already quite okay with the fact that i was already called up for an interview with one of the big 4 firms. Which then my mother brought out her artillery and brought in support of her own. Which then gave new routes to another big 4. As i had already applied for all the big 4s, only 3 had return fire. So far, i’ve went for two battles of words to win my job, and one already had offered me a place in their guild (i am talking a lil cryptic to avoid any known liabilities). So far there are many benefits to join that guild, but there is another guild who has taken interest in me, and seek to have a battle of words with me as well. This will happen soon enough.

There were a lot of shit during the time of my battle of words as well as another extra confrontation with another high member of the guild who had offered me a place in their guild. Well they had certainly caused a great stir in my mind with the many technicalities faced around the guild. But still i am in denial by the fact that i will be working soon. I dont want to work. It is a great pain to do so. Knowing the fact that i know nuts regarding the position that i would be offered to and department that i am recruited into.

I am also in denial by the fact that i am no longer a kid but am a grown adult. It pains me to decide on the many decisions faced on a day-to-day basis. The feeling is pretty fucked up. But i guess this is what they call growing up means.  Life is at its crappiest as i havent even organized my life back in my own home. How am i suppose to organize my life at work then~? Well, from my own views, i think i better take it at baby steps. No point trying to fly when i cant even crawl.

Wow, it has even come to a point where i continue this post on the next day. This is bad. Like my friend said, i wasnt blogging that often anymore which i come to think is true. Well, unfortunately to run away from reality, i submerse myself in a campaign game of Command & Conquer : Tiberum Wars. For now i am taking a rest from that to finish off whatever scanning i need to do. Well, im just plain fucking tired, with the lack of sleep, and i just dont want to work~!

Denial should be the best way to put as to how i am feeling at the moment~! Lets kill~!

I need sleep. Badly …. i just so wanted to do this short post of saying ……

 I WANT SLEEP ~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok time for my sleep.